I am not sure what is going on and what God wants me to do, but where I used to be swamped with work, it has been slacking off substantially and I find myself with more time on my hands then I know what to do with. Well, that is not true; I have so many things I want to do, but I simply lack any and all gumption and energy to get up and get going.
Instead of putting my time to good use, I divert by playing some games on the computer, watching TV, and only doing what is necessary. It is like I am wandering around in the desert and am totally without any direction. I also know that everything happens for a reason, but I don't know what the reason for my lack of energy and gumption is.
Maybe it is the calm before the storm, or maybe it is just a break from all the troubles and trials and I should simply enjoy this quiet time and count it a blessing. God knows best and gives what is needed when it is needed!
Better a handful with quietness Than both hands full, together with toil and grasping for the wind.